Monday 2 January 2012

Happy New Year!!

I can't believe it's 2012 already!! 

So have we got our resolutions all planed out?? New you, new waist line! new man maybe hahaha Well me and shitface made a pact at midnight ..... We shook hands so it's true and it has to happen!!.... We are going to get fit and loose weight! ....yes I say this EVERY year but seeing as I made a promise to my consultant that I would spend the last 6 months loosing as much weight as possible before my next injection (I'll go into that later) I thought that I should actually do it this year, or come February I'm going to be mortified when I tell him that I haven't lost but probably put on ...blushes... I'm currently eating chestnuts whilst watching The Slipper and the Rose ... Awwww such a good film


Anyway Tomorrow is a new day and I'm not going to get trapped into the thinking that because I failed today I've ruined everything!! It's all about making changes that you'll be able to stick to. Changing habits that will last for the rest of your life. Yes I will still have chocolate and cake and nice things...just not EVERY fricken day hahahaha I think maybe that's were I was going wrong ....



So a little bit here and a lot of veg there... + lots of moving! = a very sore Jenny :( ....BUT I'm a lucky girl as I have a shitface to help me ... well bully me to get off my arse and to put the CAKE DOWN! so with both of us doing it, it should be a breeze hahahaha
 Well maybe not.... We will need so much more than just each other! If your going to make changes you need  to be inspired... all the time! I've joined sites in the past, The Biggest Loser is one of the better one's. I'm not using it currently due to money flow being a bit tight ...but I would highly recommend it! Forums or even the telly! I love The biggest loser US, OZ and UK ...They are truly inspirational and will get you going in no time at all. Some other sites I'd recommend are....


Just a few of the sites I peruse to get inspired.... I hope they'll do the same for you x

So here's to a hopefully successful 2012...let us all be inspired by something, someone or even somewhere....

Jenny x

Saturday 31 December 2011

The Mayonnaise Jar



When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, 
When 24 hours in a day is not enough; 
remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee. 

A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, wordlessly,
he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and start to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
it into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again
if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand
and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions
Things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
to clean the house and fix the dripping tap.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.

'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend'.



I didn't write this ...but isn't it great!


HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE x 

Friday 16 December 2011

....Where was I?... Ahhh it's CHRISTMAS!!

..... Now I feel a bit more Christmassy .... The middle child was an excellent dwarf in his school play 'Pantomonium' and this year I was able to watch the whole show in peace!! The small evil elf was being watched by a very brave friend...giving me some quality... 'Look at me, I'm a good parent because I made it to the school play without a screaming child attached to my hip this year!!!'... which was amazzzzing!

Christmas is a funny old time. I think we get lost in the giving and receiving ...it's all about what we want and how much is this going to cost me?! So many people get themselves into so much debt just because they think the only thing that's going to make there children happy is the £300 console + games they asked for, that's not including all the other family and friends you might want to buy for...then there's the food shopping!!!
 But debt is so easily done and if I didn't have him indoors to keep me in check I'm sure I would of spent way more than we could afford this year.

 How do I see it? is it really HELL? ....

I don't see Christmas in the same way as most...perhaps I just think to much lol... When I was a child Christmas was about the birth of baby Jesus and midnight mass! We had a tree and gifts, not much as we were quite poor really. Our dad always worked Christmas day for the 'BIG BUCKS' as he would say. Which was a shame as he spent most of the day in bed after the night shift and only woke for dinner, which left us with a grumpy dad that always found something to fight about at the dinner table...it was normally the brussels sprouts! lol mmmmmm brussels sprouts...

and now...

I'll pop a tree up for the kids and we'll have gifts and a lovely Christmas dinner but.... IT'S NOT REAL!!!
 Jesus wasn't even born in December let alone on the 25th!! and whats with the tree anyway!?!?! isn't it pagan? It's all about money and guilt but we carry on with it every year for the sake of tradition...but I'm a hypocrite lol because come Christmas morning and the children are sat around the tree opening there presents and breathing a sigh of relief because they got what they wanted, I will be filled with a warm glow ...and I suppose that's what it's really about...for us anyway... So many people have different beliefs and customs around this time of year, nobody does it the exact same way or even believes the so called 'True meaning of Christmas' so instead of moaning this year I shall just make it what I think it should be.... Family x

Wednesday 14 December 2011

IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!

Yes it's come again ....the beginning of the HELL we call Christmas .... You get an endless line of questions coming your way...

..."Are you all ready for Christmas?" says the happy woman at the school gate.....
..." NO FU*K OFF!!" Would be my natural choice for a come back....but I'm a good Catholic girl so I  smile sweetly and tell them that I'm not ready....I'm never ready anytime before midnight on Christmas eve!

Not only do I have to be ready for Christmas but The Ginger child's birthday is on the 22nd, yes I didn't plan that very well...but then most children born to 21 year old's aren't to be fair.

We have done one thing ....


My little grumpy elf met Santa....you can just see my chubby arm holding tightly onto hers as she forces a smile ...she was scared stiff!! as were most of the children there hahahaha I can see why to be fair! A big man in a red suite with fake facial hair, asking you to sit on his knee and then breath down your neck  is not what a 3 year old would call fun!


I'm now off to watch my middle angelic child...with the anger problems .... in his school play x

So will be back to finish ranting later....

Sunday 6 November 2011

S.A.D the horrible truth of winter!



OK so it's been a while since my first post but if you knew me then you would know how truly rubbish I am at keeping up with things!

I have also been wondering what I should write about :/ My family would kill me if I wrote about the horrors of my childhood so it will just have to be randomness I'm afraid and perhaps an anonymous blog for all the rest...

So I thought I would start with one about S.A.D, you may of heard of it but if not then here is a brief description...


The symptoms of SAD usually recur regularly each winter,
starting between September and November and continuing
until March or April.

A diagnosis can be made after three or more consecutive winters of symptoms, which may include a number of the following:

 Depression
  • Low mood, worse than and different from normal sadness   
  • Negative thoughts and feelings
  • Guilt and loss of self-esteem
  • Sometimes hopelessness and despair
  • Sometimes apathy and inability to feel
Sleep Problems
  • The need to sleep more
  • A tendency to oversleep
  • Difficulty staying awake during the day and/or disturbed sleep with
    very early morning wakening
Lethargy
  • Fatigue, often incapacitating, making it very difficult or impossible to carry out normal routines
Over Eating
  • Craving for carbohydrates and sweet foods leading to an increase in weight
Cognitive Function
  • Difficulty with concentration and memory
  • The brain does not work as well, or as quickly
Social Problems
  • Irritability
  • Finding it harder to be with people
Anxiety
  • Tension
  • Stress is harder to deal with
Loss of Libido
  • Less interest in sex and physical contact
Sudden Mood Changes in Spring
  • Sharp change in mood
  • Some experience agitation and restlessness and/or a short period of
    hypomania (over activity)
  • No dramatic mood change but a gradual loss of winter symptoms


It's hard to understand if you don't get affected my this so trust me when I say...IT'S BLOODY HELL!... I honestly can't remember the last time I spent a winter doing normal things and feeling well. I don't tend to talk about it very much ... apart from with him indoors... as to be fair it's a bit boring really! and I suppose people wouldn't think that I suffer with depression because of how I am.

Which leads me to my fine acting skills... My gorgeous cousin isn't the only one with such talents, but I shall talk about her gorgeousness later x
So anyway back to me!... I have learnt to hide behind a mask of laughter, which I suppose has made me worse off really. I mean if your constantly acting it becomes quite stressful which in turn leads to a deeper depression. Also when you spend so much of your time perfecting your hard outer shell you loose social skills. This sounds odd... but it's true! If I know that I have to sit in a room with just one person and have a conversation .... well I probably just wouldn't do it! I'll make my excuses and hide in my house away from the unnecessary stress of a talking about life and everyone in it!  

I suppose if I had known that my life would consist of depression in the winter months and being a loon in the summer I'm not sure that I would of chosen to have children. Yes that is harsh and as I write it I don't believe that I could of spent my life with out them, but I feel very selfish as well. 
To wake in the morning and feel like you didn't even go to bed, to not have the energy to tidy or cook let alone take the kids out or play with them is no life during these months. So my family really suffer as I wonder through alone in my head space. BUT...

The light box is a marvelous thing! I haven't started using it this year yet but will be starting tomorrow!!! So hopefully between that and the yummy drugs my GP has me on will make this winter a bit more bearable! for me and my long suffering family, for whom I could not go on with out x 









Thursday 6 October 2011

Are Gypsy curses real? If so, we're buggered!

So I've been planning this for a while...if you call playing Sims and going on facebook planning, then yes I think I've done rather well...smug face...
Write a blog for god sake! everyone's doing it! Well fine here I am finally delving into this whole blogging business. I might as well give it a go. If no one reads it then so what....It's going to be my therapy :)

So where to begin, not at the beginning as the greatest thing happened the other day and I think that should get an airing first.

 So I'm upstairs annoying the cat, as you do, just getting out of the shower and wondering around looking for something clean on my floor to wear. There are two men with a pick up outside the front, picking up scrap probably going door to door.

"what are those pikey's doing" says the man indoors.

I would of been quite happy to carry on circling the room like a dog after his tail in desperation for something to put on my now cold body. But the man indoors is a bit of a girl when it comes to gossip and finding out whats going on. You could say that he's a bit of curtain twitcher.
 Anyway there looking a bit shifty, just looking at our house and down the drive, then they start wondering down it and collecting various things as they go!!! cheeky fuckers!

I've never seen the man indoors move so fast lol. Down the stairs he fly's and out the back door.
I am now a curtain twitcher ....I must say I've learnt from the best!... wondering what the hell is going on. I have one eye stuck on the window and the rest of me is now looking for something that resembles clothes, to hell with being clean they just need to fit!
 One of the men is now running to his pickup, he starts to drive away...without his traveling friend...this is like something out of Roadwars lol.
All I can hear is the man indoors shouting  "You have the right to remain silent ....."

It's all very exciting! Anyway I arrive out the front after running...well more like limping in a kind of fast-ish way, to get our neighbour, who's stuff was also being pilfered.

So I give him a peace of my mind as we wait for the police to arrive and I get told by this traveling man that I'm a bit cheeky and he couldn't understand what I found so funny.... nether could I, perhaps it was nervous or it could of been girly giggles because my man had just arrested someone lol either way he didn't like it and decided to put a Gypsy curse on all 3 of us!

That's it really...the police came and took him away and I bought my hero a massive scotch egg from the baguette shop.

Perhaps you had to be there...I thought it was Amazing!

So there we are, my first blog... I promise to start whinging about Catholics next time x